Archive | November 2011

Darkness’ Mind

My first creepypasta. One of the first attempts at horror I’ve done, so I’m very unsure about it, but I do like it. I hope it at least tickles your fancies and sends even the tiniest chill down your spine. c; This can be found on the creepypasta wiki as well, along with a tumblr I made to post my original pastas and scary stories, although it only has this and another experimental one on there at the moment, so it’s not worth linking just yet. Feedback, ideas, and the like are very welcome!

You open your eyes to pure darkness. You see not any bits or pieces of yourself; you see not your surroundings. It is too dark to know anything, even what you are wearing beyond the general facts your senses other than sight may tell you. The floor is as cold as you could ever imagine, perhaps so much that it burns, just as the air holds an unsettling chill. It seems as if you are alone, through the information you can gather of your surroundings. You hear no other person’s breathing, you hear no footsteps, only yourself. The air is seasoned with the faint scent of old coins, a mix of salt and rust, mayhaps like iron.

Left without sight to rely on, and the musty scent too similar to the liquid that runs through your body for your comfort, you attempt to rely primarily on your ears. You listen closely to your surroundings, as closely as you can. You pick up on a very low, almost unrecognizable and inaudible sound. It’s so far away that you can just barely hear it, let alone recognize what it is. It sounds as if it’s coming from something such as a television, or some sort of music—depends, really.

You attempt to stand, to go to the sound, but something inside of you, something similar to, but not quite, a combination of fear and dread, tells you to stop. To stay seated on the floor like a shivering, helpless little kitten out in the rain. You try your hardest to act on your urge to go to wherever the sound was coming from, but your body denies you this. It feels as if you are being held to the ground by thin, bony hands with fingers that are equipped with long, sharp fingernails. You attempt to touch them, but you feel only cold air and your own being.

The feeling of being watched creeps up on you, crawling up your back and spreading throughout your body, tingling within your spine and onto your other bones. It is almost too overbearing to ignore, too certain. You look behind you, but as always, there is nothing but pitch-black darkness. There are no footsteps, there is no breathing. How could someone be there, watching you, staring at you so intently that you cannot even hear them move the tiniest bit or take the smallest breath? It was near impossible.

But the feeling.

The feeling was so certain. So very, very certain. So certain that you close your eyes so tightly that you can only open them wide and stare. So certain that you begin to hear the faintest of many voices whispering in your ears, indecipherable languages and inaudible sentences, chilly breath upon your clammy skin. The hairs on your neck stand up and you feel a shiver uncontrollably run up your spine. After that, comes the laughter.

The quiet laughter that haunts you within every voice whispering, the taunting, knowing sound of laughter upon your ear, breathing on it so lightly, breaths so subtle that you cannot ignore it. The darkness surrounds you, pressing against your body, and you attempt to move, but a deep guilt burrowed in your stomach for a reason that you cannot recognize and the unshakable feeling of being held down keep you from doing so. Your throat feels dry, but you attempt to scream. You hear nothing escape your mouth, not even a breath. All you can hear are the whispers, the laughter, and your own heartbeat.

Suddenly, all senses seemingly shut off. You see nothing but the darkness. You hear nothing but your shallow heartbeat. You smell nothing. You feel nothing but the ghostly hands withdrawing themselves away from your body, the feeling of being watched tingling through your bones and the inability to move. Somehow, you are thankful for this. You cannot hear or feel the sources of your fear as much as you could anymore, after all.

But the feeling of being watched remains. You know you are being watched. It’s an obvious fact, unshakable and undeniable, lurking in your very being. You cannot ignore it, you cannot forget it. Your heart is racing as if you had begun watching a suspenseful horror movie, your body is trembling as if you had just completed an anxiety attack and, out of shear fear and panic, were trembling. But you shan’t look behind you. You can’t. You just remain there wondering when whatever is watching you will show itself or finally end your life, hopefully without much fear or pain. But you’re a human.

And curiosity is human nature.

You look behind you to see the very thing your racing heart and subconscious mind would expect from the room of such deep fear, but not what your conscious mind would, clinging to such pathetic hope.

One night in the future, near or far, you will prepare yourself for a good night’s sleep. You carry on with your pre-sleep schedule like normal, although something feels off. It’s a very minute detail, something you can’t put your finger on, so you go on without fear. As you lay down to rest that night, you attempt to put the unsettling away and turn something on, perhaps a computer, a television, a CD player, anything to provide you with noise, a little bit of light, or both, as you drift off to sleep. But you shan’t wake up from your dream this time.


Fiction Writing: Horror Genre – Scary story tips!

The Slender Man

One of the first images of a viral horror that has inspired pants-shittingly horrifying video series, alternate reality games, and blogs.

So, you want to write something that will inspire fear in someone – something that will legitimately scare people. Something to perhaps wrench our stomachs in fear, crawl up our spine with that little feeling of being watched, make our hearts beat like fear is pumping into it through our veins. But you may run into a problem that I see a lot in those who want to write horror – you might be unsure of what to write about that can both be enjoyable for you and have a product that has the ability to inspire fear in people.

That’s what I’m here for, today. To give those tips that those of you who want to write a convincing scary story and want to enjoy writing it as well, or in my case, feel at least a tad bit of fear while writing it yourself – although, to me, personally, fearing while writing a horror is enjoying writing it – but need a little help figuring out how to do so, or simply need some inspiration on new ways to do so.

I write creepypasta (for those who don’t know creepypasta, it’s pretty much short stories of the horror genre) in my free time, for two reasons. The first one being I like to write a bit of horror when I get the chance, the second being I want to string together a story that can actually scare people, since most of the pasta I see floating around the internet isn’t written in a way that it scares me, personally, and in the eyes of a horror loving reader, that’s not really a good sign.

So, I decided to try to piece together what made the horrors that actually inspired fear in me scary, and why the ones that didn’t simply… didn’t. Now, everyone is afraid of different things, so I can’t assure you that following my tips will make a story that scares everyone who reads it shitless, but the thing about these tips is it doesn’t outright TELL you what to write about, it only does what this is for: tips. Tips on how to make the fear realistic, the story convincingly written, something that you yourself can enjoy and/or fear at the same time and still be your own unique product.

So, without further ado, this is a brief list of some of the reasons I’ve found with why some horrors don’t come off as scary to me or in the opinions of others I have seen:

  1. It’s not written in a way that it really convinces and engages someone.
  2. It doesn’t seem like the writing style shows fear.
  3. The subject matter isn’t something that seems like it would really scare many people.

Now, as I said earlier, everyone has different fears, therefore not everyone will be scared by your story. However, there are people that share fears, and that will come to your advantage. Here is my personal check list for when I write horror – feel free to bend and break it to your will, you’re a writer, you have every right to do that – that is inspired by things that actually have reception of scaring many people, and my observation of common fears.

  • Project your own fears into your writing. I cannot stress this point enough. If you aren’t scared, chances are, you won’t be able to make it seem scary in the writing, so your readers have a high chance of not being scared. This is a big part of making the story convincing. Channel your own deepest fears, be it a combination of your largest fear mixed with your other lesser fears or just a certain fear you have, into your writing and make something that YOU would be scared of. This tends to give it a more effective, scary feel. The first and perhaps funnest thing for many people to write about is something that they know about, be it from research, experience, or however it is they know of it, so it would make writing it much more easier on you and enjoyable, although by all means, step out of your comfort zone as much as possible (writing a horror story about something you fear may already be this) – a feeling of discomfort may be pushed into your writing, but it will make it even more convincing – as challenges always help you improve.
  • Try something you know others fear, especially if you, too, fear it. Let’s face it – a lot of people have similar fears. This is what makes popular horrors popular – the common fear. Many people fear the unknown – that’s why so many people fear things such as the popular fear, death, the dark, and paranormal creatures that you may or may not know as such as The Slender Man. They don’t know what happens after death and what they will face, they don’t know what could come out after them in the dark, they don’t know paranormal entities/eldritch abomination’s like Slender Man’s motives, weaknesses, or true modus operandi. Find something that you know other people fear, and you fear at least the tiniest bit, as well.
  • Alternatively, take something that people know well and/or find comforting and throw it into the uncanny valley – twist it into something unnatural and/or intimidating. Imagine, something people see every day. It’s perfectly normal, perhaps even comforting to see. Then they realize that there’s something off about it. Something so normal that it’s not, that it becomes something alien and intimidating to them. This is like combining something people know well and combine it with the unknown. Changing something that should be normal or comforting and turning it inside out, twisting it into something unnatural and intimidating, can be scary. Again, take The Slender Man for example. A tall, thin man in a business suit isn’t something most fear. But there’s just something so wrong about him/It, something so wrong that it’s left tons of people scared shitless after getting into the mythos. Perhaps you can take something so normal and push it into the uncanny valley, combine it with factors that people and you yourself tend to fear beneath it’s ‘normal’ surface.
  • Be subtle, but be careful about it. Subtlety is your friend in most cases. Be subtle about things. Foreshadow, but don’t make it obvious. This is something that every story needs at least a little bit at one time or another, but it’s something I LOVE to see hit right on the head of the nail in horror. It gives an unnatural “What’s going on?” feel to it while still remaining effective and convincing. Don’t use too much subtlety when it comes down to it, but don’t use too less if it can add something to your story, either. The point is, try not to say things outright sometimes, but keep giving it emotion and feel. Practice subtlety when you need to use it, so you can learn what a good amount of subtlety for your writing is when it comes in handy. Mystery is a lovely aspect for some things, especially when it’s mixed into horror. Subtlety is something that can be very hard to do right, and I’ll probably give it a post of it’s own sometime later. Until then, if you think subtlety is something that can compliment your scary story, see how you can use it for it – don’t forget to practice!
  • Subtle or not, give us detail on the senses of the writing. Do not be boring, but not over the top. If you really want to scare someone and your story has a character experiencing fear, don’t just say “John was scared.” Use detail on certain things, no matter the style, if you want us to get the same feeling as the character. Compare a simple sentence like “John was scared.” to something more detailed, such as “Anxiety rose and bubbled through his body like boiling water as John’s eyes darted around the room. An unnerving sensation of unblinking eyes upon him surged through his body, his heart pounding loudly as if it were trying to escape the confines of his chest, racing against time itself. Something wasn’t right, but he didn’t quite know what it was. Confusion and fear laced his rising breath – he saw no one else alongside him, despite the unshakable feeling that there was someone there, watching him constantly.” Detail can help make the reader feel things much more easily – don’t say that he’s scared, or he’s confused or angry, show it instead. Make the reader get the same feeling that someone in the situation would. However, when doing this, like subtlety, it is important not to go over the top with detail, or it’ll just become a heap of steaming detail and let the reader know too much about the feel of the story, depending on what kind of feel you’re going for. You can try to experiment with using a lot of detail if you want to see if it can work, but I personally wouldn’t advise it. It depends on personal and reader preference.
  • Whether or not you’re going for psychological horror or gore-based horror, maybe you can try to mess with our psyche just a little bit. The human psyche is something very interesting, and using horror writing to play with it at least a little bit depending on your horror genre can just be great. Messing with people’s heads in writing can be a great practice for learning styles, at the very least. We’ve got our own fears and ticks up here in our minds, why don’t you try to play with it? Mess us up a little, give us nightmares, if you want.
  • Have fun with it. Make your own list of how you do things when you develop your own horror style. Don’t follow everything in this list, if anything at all, bend and break it until you find something that works for you and your genre of scary story. You’re a writer – mess around until you find something that you want. Take the tips you get and bend them around, twist them until they fit for you or don’t use some of them at all. If you want to try something someone doesn’t advise, if you want to experiment with things that are considered things that should never be done in the genre just to see how you would do it, go ahead. Do what YOU want, not what a list of tips tells you to do. This list is to help you create your own formula and give you ideas on how to help your horror writing, not tell you what to do. Be yourself in your style and be unique when you find the opportunity to be.

This is how I personally work on my horrors and what I tend to see done in ones that are successful. The key to it is finding what you enjoy doing and what really works when you try it, observing the way different things in your writing effect the piece itself and the readers, and very importantly being original, in the end. These tips can also apply for script writers who are doing a script for a horror movie and the like, not just people working on writing a fictional novel, novella or short story.

I’d like to suggest a little horror writing exercise, either to help you get inspired for something else, practice your horror writing or just your writing in particular, or maybe even just for fun – if you have any childhood fears or nightmares, use those for practice. Things based on childhood fears and the like can turn out to be very scary and fun to write about if it doesn’t bother you too much to do it.

On a last note, I’d like to suggest some of my  favourite horror for you horror fans out there.

Novel: Mark Z. Danielewski’s ‘House of Leaves’ is a splendid novel that is most often considered horror. It plays with psyche and experiments quite a bit. Despite it’s large size, I would definitely recommend it – it is a splendid example of psychological horror.

Web video series: Marble Hornets is the video series that started the hype over Eldritch Abomination, The Slender Man. It is inspired by the original creepypasta under the SomethingAwful thread and has scared plenty of people to unbelievable degrees. I, myself, had to cover my mirror and windows for months after watching and becoming hooked to it. However, the key to the story is to *pay attention to the background* and when you don’t see anything for a while, keep paying attention and don’t give up until you’ve at least watched up to entry 18. This is the element that causes the horror effect it has with it.

Music: ‘Haunted’ by Poe, the sister of the writer of House of Leaves, is a beautiful song that inspires me for horror writing. Although the song is inspired greatly by their father, it is also a companion piece to the novel, as the album itself is considered to be as well.

Do you have any comments, ideas, or things to add on to these tips? Leave them in the comments section if willing to do so – any insight is helpful to writers of any genre!

NaNoWriMo 2011 Update One: In which I crave a mocha and elaborate on the yes of some unknown coffee cake

My profile on the official NaNoWriMo website – be my writing buddy if you want.

Novel: The Anguish Exchange

Genre: Paranormal Fantasy

Word count as of 5:02 AM: 10,084

Alright, here we are.. my first real NaNoWriMo 2011 update! So far, I’ve gotten a little over 10k in my novel, which is the main goal for today… but I want to hit 15k by 11:59 tonight, just for the sake of getting a bit of a running start, I suppose, and getting as much done as possible. My plan for today is to manage off of sweets, coffee, exercise, excitement, and inspiration for my novel.

I haven’t been able to go to Starbucks in quite a while, due to money issues, and I’m bouncing off the walls in excitement for the next time I get to have a mocha and my first ever motherfucking Pumpkin Spice Latte. Their little snackiedoodles are pretty great, too – double chocolate brownies and scones are delicious with mocha, and I don’t remember what kind of coffee cake I had with my latte last time I got one, but it was fucking orgasmic.

Just… just.. it was yes, okay? It was yes.

I don’t really have anything else to say here and I need to go get a little bit of kick to stay up a little later and write some more. c; No tips today, sorry – later in the month when I’ve got more of a hold over things, maybe?

Have a great November, NaNo-ers, Non-NaNo-ers, and people who are reading this in some time that isn’t November!

Fiction Writing with Officer HerpDerp at 5 AM: Gathering Ideas

So, we’ve all sat down and decided to write a novel before, be it because we want to or because it’s one of our sources in which we make money for a living. Some of us have already been struck by an idea for a novel, some of us are inspired but we don’t have any idea what we want to write, or some of us just need an idea or more regardless of the situation (I.E needing an idea for something like NaNoWriMo, which is this month – good luck, if whoever’s reading this is a NaNo-er).

Some of us come up with the general plot or idea of the story first, then come up with the characters. Some of us come up with the characters, then the plot or general idea of the story. Some of us come up with the general idea, then the characters, then the full-on plot. This, my first blog article on giving tips for fiction writers, is for those of us who are on that stage, be it first, second, or third, where we need that spark of inspiration, be it for the general idea or plot, or a concept for a character.

This will consist of the ways that I, and other people, have gotten ideas – none of which are confirmed to work for you or anyone, but have worked for others, so it’s worth a try if you can manage it or it seems like a good idea to you. These will be from my own personal experiences, the experiences from writers I know, and the experiences of random people on the internet. If you have a way that you’ve gotten ideas – be it the general story, plot, or a character concept – that you think could help people out, please feel free to put them in the comments! The more the merrier, after all.

I tend to get my ideas from research, or just hearing about whatever interesting concept I get lucky enough to find. Since I love to know more about things that tickle my fancy when I hear of them, when I hear or read about an interesting concept or event, I get to researching, starting at wikipedia and going down into things that are generally accepted to be more reliable if I find it interesting enough from there on. This research goes on, until suddenly, an idea may spark for something that I could use to base a novel, novella, or short story on!

This first worked out wonderfully for me when I got the first sparkle of inspiration for the original idea of the current universe I am writing in. I was watching the I.D. channel, and some of the people involved in the cases they had been going over were involved in a cult. I found this interesting and started to look it up, delving deeper and deeper into reading about cults and things similar to them until I was specifically reading about cults that were involved in religions and ritualistic concepts. I ended up reading a lot about different religions, magic, and different cults in one or two nights.

I ended up getting an idea the next day for the main group of characters the first few novels in my series are centering around. They were originally a cult led by a maniacal man who believed he had found a way to summon the former ‘Angel of Light’ and current ‘Prince of Darkness’, Lucifer. As the years went by, the characters developed, changed, and fixed themselves to hold a place in my heart, the story changing to something only vaguely similar to what it was on that 28th of November two years ago. This way of getting ideas has worked for me countless times since, be it for roleplay characters, short stories, new characters for the universe my novels take place in, or new novel ideas as a whole.

The next few are quotes from a survey I conducted here on the internet with people I have never met or spoken to before (they will remain anonymous due to this fact), perhaps with my opinion or insight added afterwards.

Well, the more creative your mind is, the more ideas you’ll get.

I personally can examine a simple object or word, and create a nice poem, or even a wicked short story about it.

Most of the time, I just think of different stories completely out of random.

The first one is one that a lot of, if not all, writers thrive upon, or at least attempt to do so – creativity. Everyone has it somewhere in their mind, although some people seem to have more than others. Use it, even if it’s not as apparent as it is in someone else – just because you don’t feel as creative as others doesn’t mean you can’t be if you delve deep enough into yourself! The second is a fun and interesting concept which I have tried before, and have written a drabblet short story or so as a result of, along with a few poems, that speaks for itself, as is the third.

I refer to my notebook of “ideas” where something struck me as interesting and I noted next to it “look into this” or “would be a good subplot for a fantasy” or “nice characteristic for an antagonist”

I also ask “what if” constantly. What if people aged much slower? How would that affect our society (years in school, years in retirement, marriages, etc). Or what if the FBI was never formed and the mafia still existed in full force to this day? How would that have affected society? Or What if a modifier was discovered that could control the rate at which your cells replaced themselves? What if you could clone body parts? What if humans evolved from aliens? What if the Bible is really a story of our original planet before we colonized Earth? What if Iraq was the world’s leading super power.

Etc. That’s basically how I generate ideas. All the little details I steal from real life.

I really like this person’s outlook and how they ‘generate ideas’, in their own words. I think the “what if” manner could really help people struggling to put together an idea, and keeping track of little details that come to mind such as good ideas for plots, subplots, character traits, names, etc can help manage said ideas (that’s mainly the only thing I use my phone for – memo’ing little ideas when I don’t have access to my notebooks or computer).

1.) Ideas. Use imagination.

2.) Find ideas. Use five senses: Touch, taste, smell, see, hear. Mix ’em for originality.

3.) The five ‘w’s. Who, what, when, where and why. Find the story.

4.) Story elements. Setting, rising action, conflict, falling action, end. Usually needed.

5.) Action. Use active verb forms, active settings, active characters. Good writing.

6.) Description. Describe in small doses. Use action and observation. It’s the best way.

7.) Experiment. Stories can be great when “outside the box” and “the comfort zone.”

8.) Edit. Check spelling, grammar, sentence structure, flow and format. Always.

9.) Publish. Use “The Writer’s Market” or “Writer’s Digest” to learn “How To Publish.” 

10.) Keep trying.

I like this person’s ‘check list’ of sorts. It’s not something everyone has to follow or use every thing on, but it’s simple, down to the point, and although it’s not JUST about gathering ideas for things, as this is about, it gives some good tips for writers.

Unfortunately, none of the people I know who write at least on the occasion who have any ways other than these to get ideas are awake right now aside from “lul i don’t really know” and the whole “IT’LL COME TO YA!” (reference cookie) deal, so I’d like to request even more that, no matter what time it is you’re reading this, be it tonight, a few weeks from now, a few years from now, whatever, comment with the way that you personally get your writing ideas.

That’s all I have for now and I apologize for not putting too much content into this post, but I hope it’s at least helpful. Next time I do something on writing and give tips, hopefully I’ll be in more of a state of mind to give more opinions, insight, feedback, and general comments. Thank you for reading, and I will probably end up updating this to fix any horrific mistakes I’ve made in my tired mess, make it more proper of a post intended to be helpful, and just make it overall better than it is now.

Of wonky sleep schedules, future plans for the blog, and an art-rut

So, apparently, all of my posts on here say they’ve been posted a day after the day I really post them. That’s wonky. WordPress, y u do dis? I probably seem wacky referencing to what day it could be to anyone who sees the actual date it claims to be published on.

So, on to actual post content that no one really gives a fuck about but I’m going to do anyway, in between NaNoWriMo, cuddling a puppy, drinking coffee with brownies and giggling around with the loviebear, my sleep schedule has somehow become wonky again. According to, again referring to with a silly name, the loviebear, I’ve only been sleeping about three hours before waking up again. Of course, if I’m bored enough, I’ll pass out again within an hour or two, but if I’ve got something to do, I can stay up for a while, then repeat. It’s kind of silly but also convenient – I’ve been sleeping for three or so hours in the mornings lately, then passing out a while later and sleeping until about three PM and getting to work then. It’s kind of fun, but I just messed that up by doing that cycle in the middle of the night instead. Let’s see how that turns out.

I’ve been contemplating doing some posts about how I go about getting my short stories and novels set up, how I go through the process of everything, and how things get into place, etc with my own tips, tricks and opinions on and about writing. It just sounds like it’d be overall fun to do and maybe help at least one other person out if anyone can find this blog. I’m also thinking about doing little segments on my views on life and concepts, just for shits and giggles, to be able to go around and ramble about a concept or word for a while and categorize that into it’s own little thing.

My lovie and I are planning on watching The Exorcist together whenever we get the opportunity, and I’m kind of scared shitless. I saw a screamer that apparently had something from that movie in it years back and it had me terrified of rocking chairs for at least three years. I’m hoping to watch Rosemary’s Baby soon, too, and finally read the horror novels that we have here now that used to belong to my Granny. I swear, I find a new Stephen King novel of her’s somewhere in the house every month or two.

Still trying to shake off the laziness and get down to business on some artwork in between my daily life, (which a lot of it probably seems like it’s a waste of time and space to anyone reading this blog, but I’m leaving a lot of what I do/plan out, I swear) but I’m just not inspired to make anything worth while right now. Maybe once I finish my novel and put it down for a bit I’ll be able to muster the inspiration to draw, digi-paint, or photo-manipulate some things in the free time left in my life while I give the novel a break before I go into my first personal edit.

I’ve got a lot of ideas for things to at least doodle in my head, but I just can’t get them out. I can’t even get the inspiration to grab my sketchbook and a pencil. I really, really want to work on some character designs, especially since a lot of them are changing slightly as I revamp some of my novel and it’s characters for the last time to get to business on actually doing a draft that will become the one to be published. I really want to get down some designs for some of the female character’s outfits and design some of the characters who I was never able to really get a good design out for now.

But, nonetheless, be expecting some character sketches in my NaNo-related posts since I’m going to be trying to get out some information on the characters in some of them later this month! I’m kind of excited, since actually having a place that’s just for me, myself, and I to post things will probably motivate me to put them up more.

I’m going to try to get back in the groove of working, so I’m going to drop off the blog for a while, get a drink and a snack, and get to work on some things that I really need to get done. Hopefully I’ll be making a more useful post about writing or giving NaNoWriMo tips sometime soon. Until then, have a random bit of wonky post pulled out of my ass.

National Novel Writing Month 2011: Introduction

Hello, folks! Two days ago was November first, the beginning of a month that means a lot to me, and one of the reasons it does so is simple–it’s nation novel writing month! For those of you who don’t know about it, National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo), November, is a month where many writers start a goal to write at least 50,000 pages of a novel by the end of the month. It, to me, seemed like a wonderful opportunity to finally finish the first novel in a series I’ve been planning for two years, and, ironically, I began working on this novel long before I knew about National Novel Writing Month and just so happened to begin planning it in November of that year!

I’ve sprung head-first into my NaNo novel and am currently nearing 8,000 words. It’s not much, but seeing as it’s so early into NaNoWriMo, I’m proud of myself for that. I’m very excited to participate, so tonight, I’m going to share my plan for the month and how I’m going to get through it!

Since I’ve got relationships to sustain, I’m trying to get a plan that works with my schedules and will let me keep free reign over my life rather than let NaNoWriMo take over  it. How am I going to do this? Well, I’m naturally a fast typer, so, obviously, I’m going to start off by working on the computer in one document for the most part, so that I can get in as many words as I can in during the free time I have. I’m trying to set aside an hour or two per day to just focus on getting ideas and increasing the word count as much as possible, without going so much that my mind turns to mush for the night and everything gets shitty.

I don’t want my NaNoWriMo project to make me cringe at every other word when I finish, so I don’t want to be working on it to the point where it stresses me out, makes me run out of ideas and lets my brain run dry. I want to take the time with wording, plot, and making sure I’m not just using a pen filled with shit to write it. I’m not going through and taking the time to edit it all, only taking the time to make sure what comes out in my first draft isn’t a bunch of shit so when it’s done, I can edit it into something worth publishing.

If I can’t get a lot of writing in for the day, if any, then that’s okay. I’ll just make up for it on a day when I’ve got some extra time. Family and friends come first for me, so if it comes down to it, I pick them first, maybe try to get a little writing in right before if I have the time. If it starts to stress me out too much, I won’t force myself to keep writing, instead I’ll take a break and just calm down by doing something I enjoy, like spending time with people or watching a movie, reading something, taking a nap, watching the ID channel, or if it’s got me so stressed out that I’m feeling aggressive, I’ll try to get some work done on other things, since, for me, aggressive, stressful and frustrated feelings make it easier to be productive.

An important part of my plan is making sure I’m inspired to write. What tends to inspire me is being away from home, somewhere I can relax, so I’m going to be going to a nearby Starbucks every day or two to have a mocha (or if I’m feeling adventurous, a latte) and maybe a scone, piece of banana chocolate chip coffee cake, or even a double chocolate brownie, sit down and type away. My cousin, who’s like a sister to me, has gone with me during the preparation period, and earlier tonight, and once or twice, to get her college work done or catch up on her reading, so it’s both being productive and spending time together for us both.

If I’m feeling particularly inspired for it when I’m at home, I’ll get cracking. Of course, when I’m at home working on it, I will be much more ‘chill’ over it, talk to my family if they try to talk to me, chat with my beau, dick around tumblr, watch a little investigation discovery, you know, so that i’m not risking what I enjoy or any relationships while I take some extra time out of life for my NaNoWriMo project. If I’m not at home, but I don’t have my computer with me, and I’m getting all of these ideas on lines to use or new scenes, I won’t hesitate to whip out my trusty cell-phone and make a few memos containing whatever ideas I get.

It seems like some of the worst things to do during NaNoWriMo, at least for me, is to take it on too strong and spend so much time on it that you don’t have any or much time for the things and people you love, stressing yourself out about it and trying to force yourself to keep going, and not giving yourself a break. Don’t be hard on yourself, or your life – you CAN do it! It seems overwhelming at first, but if you try hard and keep in mind that you can do it without sacrificing your life or things you really enjoy for the month, you can do it, or at least make a lot of progress in your novel. If you don’t hit 50,000 by the end of the month, who cares? You can still finish it! It’s not like you’re forbidden from it, so just chill out, give yourself a break, and let your mind flow–do what’s best for you, not what’s best for pumping out a bunch of words faster, and don’t let writing become something that you have to do whether you like it or not rather than something that you WANT to do.

I’m going to try to post something about NaNoWriMo on here every week, be it about the event itself or my project, and I’ll probably be including word counts and updates on how it’s going no matter what in my NaNoWriMo related posts. I hope whoever finds this enjoys reading about my experience as it goes, and hopefully my plan can at least help someone else manage to do their NaNoWriMo without it getting out of hand for them.